Jesus knew my sins and died for me anyway.

Jesus knew my sins. Today I want to talk about Leviticus 20:13… It reads “If a man has sexual intercourse with a male as one has sexual intercourse with a woman, the two of them have committed an abomination. They must be put to death.” This is the verse in the bible that condemns homosexuality as a sin. A sin, a capital crime against God, punishable by death.

I believe this.

I am a Christian and I believe this.

I am a homosexual and I believe this.

I believe that homosexuality is a sin against God. I believe it because my God told me. He put it in His word that this is His law and I must obey His law.

However, my God also knew that I would sin. He knew that I would commit this crime and because of that I would be separated from Him for eternity. God wants us to know Him, God wants to be apart of our lives, to bless us so that we may in turn bless others. He created us to share love for life with everyone we come in contact with. God does not like to be separated from his children, and he knew that us sinning was separating us from him. Which is why we have the verse that gives me strength and gives me life and freedom in the Kingdom of God: 1st John 2:1 which reads

“My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the Righteous One, and He Himself is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for our sins but also for the sins of the whole world.”

If our sins are the bricks separating us from God, he wanted to take it down, which is why we have this verse:

“Just as man is destined to die once, and after that to face judgment, so Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people” Hebrews 9:27

And when he died, Jesus knew this too. Jesus knew my sins. Jesus knew I would betray his Father, and my promise to Him, by being a sinner. The same way he knew Judas would betray him, but at the last supper Judas ate too. Jesus knew all of this, and He gave His life so that I would have eternal life with His Father our Lord in Heaven. He gave His life so that I could know God.

When Jesus died for me, He was saying that He knew He would suffer, but He wanted so badly for us to know His Father that he died anyway so that we could. Because He knew that our sins were keeping us from God. So he took on all of our sins, every law from Leviticus is abolished and every sin is forgiven, so that we would not need to be sentenced to death and await eternal damnation in hell. Jesus took all of that on for us so that we could know God.

The issue is not “is it a sin or not” because yeah it is, the issue is that if you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and savior then you are not going to hell for being gay. And I don’t see how Christians can dispute this since I don’t see anyone else out here in divorce courts yelling about how those involved are going to hell now, even though we know it is a sin. People don’t get upset about having premarital sex and how you’re condemning your life for that, even though we know it is a sin. When men shave their beards or women cut their hair we don’t fear that God will turn us away.

If you say that we are going to hell for our sins, if we should be punished with death for being gay then you are saying that Jesus’s sacrifice wasn’t enough for you.

To be a Christian doesn’t mean to agree with every other Christian. It means to believe and agree with everything set forth by the Father in His Word. Agreeing that homosexuality is a sin, admitting to that sin, and agreeing that God has saved you from that. He has saved you by saying “Yes you sinned, but Jesus paid that debt already and if you serve me in everything you do, if you strive to live in my image I will reward you with blessings beyond belief in this lifetime, and reward you with eternal life in heaven.”

I have accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and savior and everything that I do, I do for Him. I strive to live in His image, and represent the Lord as best as I possibly could. Because my God LOVES ME! He wanted to know me so he sent His son to DIE just so He could know me and have a place in my life. HOW INCREDIBLE is that??? There is SO much God has done for me in my short lifetime and I want to share it with everyone everywhere! I want to shout it from the rooftops “My God saved me! My God loves me! My God loves you too, get to know Him and let Him prove himself to you!”

My God knows I am gay and he still loves me, he still sent his Son to die for me, so that I may know him and love him. My God knows I am gay and he still blesses me with his love, comfort, and support every single day. His sacrifice was enough for me.

I have struggled a long time with the idea of coming out; not as a Christian, and not as gay, but as both. With admitting to the world that I don’t fit their ideas of what a Christian is or what a gay person is. I know there will be people who dispute this, I know there will be people who don’t understand, who will be angry at me for my choices. My choice to be a Christian and my choice to be openly gay.  But it honestly, doesn’t matter because I know in my heart that God has called me to share my story (Check out my post about that later this week for more details) and this is a HUGE part of my story. I am terrified to put myself out there and admit all of this in-front of the global audience that is the internet. But I know that with my God at my side NO ONE can stand against me.

If I can reach just one person with my story, to impact their life then I have done good. If you are gay, or fit anywhere under the LGBT+ umbrella and you are struggling with your faith or belief in God I want you to know, “He loves you, He is there for you, and He supports you.Please come home to the Lord. If you are a straight Christian struggling with sins of your own I want you to know “He loves you, He forgives you, He wants you to be happy.”


At the time of writing this blog post it is June of 2019, also known as Pride month. This is a month dedicated to those who love freely, and fought hard for the people that they love, to get the rights they deserve to love those people. Pride month is full of parades, festivals, and rainbows. It is also gives another excuse for people to talk about gay people and their “agenda.” This can be an extremely controversial topic, one that I am honestly terrified to talk about openly to the world. However, I feel there is someone, somewhere that may need to hear what I am going to say. So here’s to you, whoever you are, wherever you are this post is dedicated to you. May this be the reassurance, guidance or whatever that you need right now.


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  • All I can say is that I am proud of you for ALL that you are and what you have accomplished and survived . May you forever stay strong.
    And remember, always, that being brave means being scared , vulnerable and failing alot, while never giving up or giving in.
    I love you, baby girl, with all that I am! ❤

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